Sunday, May 4, 2014

A picture Paints a thousand words and sometimes sends you screaming!

It has been a while since I blogged,  probably the biggest break I have had since I started this little blog way back.  You see I have been a bit "blah" about blogging, my mojo seemed to up and go.  I haven't really crafted much either and not understanding how to upload my photos from my new phone (which is the main camera I seem to use lately) has really reduced post fodder.

I have however, been actively embracing change in my own life. You might recall I went to Perth in the summer. A trip that gave me a wonderful opportunity to meet up with one of my favourite bloggers Bronwyn from Taylor Made.  We caught up at a local cafe in Mandurah, along with me I took my eccentric MIL who entertained us with her crazy stories.  It was a lovely day, we went from virtual friends to real life friends and of course, as bloggers do - we took photos. 

And you know how they say a picture paints a thousand words?  Well Bronwyn looked beautiful but who was the blimp next to her? Holy snapping turtles!!!! It was ME! The picture screamed  at me  "HEY FATTY BOOM STICKS"!!!! OMG!!




It certainly put a rocket under me and I have taken on a new attitude to living.   Hooley dooley, how the hell did I get this fat? 

Well let me tell you how.  It all comes down to not looking after my mental health.  I have blogged about my anxiety disorder in the past, so some readers might be familiar with this GAD (generalised anxiety disorder). Ironically, I am a mental health worker who works with folk in their recovery.

So the time had come for me to walk my own talk.
My mental health is very driven by hormonal swings, PMS (hide the ice picks) is just awful, pregnancy and post birth ugh!  But now I am in a peri -menopausal phase and it SUCKS like nothing else has sucked before!

Not long before this photo, I had a spate of panic attacks - one was so severe that I raced to my GP at 8.30am thinking I was having a heart attack. Stupidly, I mistook it for a panic attack.  I got over it and went along with business, just dealing with the swings as they rose and dipped.  This photo came along and then, only then through the tears and sobs did I finally admit I was really really miserable. It was time for action and big change.

So here I am, a little down the track and feeling the change kick in.  I won't bombard you all with a HUGE post of my changes, I'll save that for the coming weeks.  I will say though, that old expression "scales fall from my eyes" - indeedy! I have never felt so good in my life, things look so different.

So about that blogging mojo? I am going to start a course with Pip so I am hoping to learn some new things about blogging to spruce up my style and move on into the wave of blogging. So, I am back friends and looking forward to connecting and sharing some more.

love
Miss P xx



7 comments:

peaches mcginty said...

It's wonderful to meet blogging friends isn't it? I have to say I think you look beautiful and happy, I do hope you are feeling better though, and I look forward to your future posts (I think I may be going through this peri-menopausal thing too, it's a hormone roller coaster!) x x x

Angels have Red Hair said...

I'm so pleased you're doing something for you ... sometimes we get so busy taking care of everyone else we forget about ourselves.
xx

Just Martha said...

Aaawww, go you! I had a moment when I was running and my group were cheering me on. All lovely until I realized "O my god I'm the fat girl in the group". Time for change indeed and I agree best to do it all before that menopause monster actually arrives. I've lost my mojo too. No excuse except I have nothing much to say, witty or otherwise. I love your self awareness. I think your MIL sounds like such fun and I await your posts! xx

Olivia said...

I'm so glad you got your mojo back too, i'm feeling a bit blah at the mo, too much going on, not enough down time. My head spins and my body suffers. Wish I could run 2.5km, how the hell??? x

Bron said...

Oh how did I miss this post......they are great photos....and the even greater thing is that meeting you in real allows me now to hear your voice your posts......you are gorgeous and generous but I admire your determination to change what you are down about.....you go girl and I can't wait to see and hear more from you and the things that you have going on.... Xxxxx

And the dolphin watching was a bonus as was your very funny MIL x

Bron said...

Oh how did I miss this post......they are great photos....and the even greater thing is that meeting you in real allows me now to hear your voice your posts......you are gorgeous and generous but I admire your determination to change what you are down about.....you go girl and I can't wait to see and hear more from you and the things that you have going on.... Xxxxx

And the dolphin watching was a bonus as was your very funny MIL x

Kathy Ann said...

What a post! Love this idea of doing a blogging course. Glad u are getting on track. Very inspiring xoxo