It has been a while since I blogged, probably the biggest break I have had since I started this little blog way back. You see I have been a bit "blah" about blogging, my mojo seemed to up and go. I haven't really crafted much either and not understanding how to upload my photos from my new phone (which is the main camera I seem to use lately) has really reduced post fodder.
I have however, been actively embracing change in my own life. You might recall I went to Perth in the summer. A trip that gave me a wonderful opportunity to meet up with one of my favourite bloggers Bronwyn from
Taylor Made. We caught up at a local cafe in Mandurah, along with me I took my eccentric MIL who entertained us with her crazy stories. It was a lovely day, we went from virtual friends to real life friends and of course, as bloggers do - we took photos.
And you know how they say a picture paints a thousand words? Well Bronwyn looked beautiful but who was the blimp next to her? Holy snapping turtles!!!! It was ME! The picture screamed at me "HEY FATTY BOOM STICKS"!!!! OMG!!
It certainly put a rocket under me and I have taken on a new attitude to living. Hooley dooley, how the hell did I get this fat?
Well let me tell you how. It all comes down to not looking after my mental health. I have blogged about my anxiety disorder in the past, so some readers might be familiar with this GAD (generalised anxiety disorder). Ironically, I am a mental health worker who works with folk in their recovery.
So the time had come for me to walk my own talk.
My mental health is very driven by hormonal swings, PMS (hide the ice picks) is just awful, pregnancy and post birth ugh! But now I am in a peri -menopausal phase and it SUCKS like nothing else has sucked before!
Not long before this photo, I had a spate of panic attacks - one was so severe that I raced to my GP at 8.30am thinking I was having a heart attack. Stupidly, I mistook it for a panic attack. I got over it and went along with business, just dealing with the swings as they rose and dipped. This photo came along and then, only then through the tears and sobs did I finally admit I was really really miserable. It was time for action and big change.
So here I am, a little down the track and feeling the change kick in. I won't bombard you all with a HUGE post of my changes, I'll save that for the coming weeks. I will say though, that old expression "scales fall from my eyes" - indeedy! I have never felt so good in my life, things look so different.
So about that blogging mojo? I am going to start a course with
Pip so I am hoping to learn some new things about blogging to spruce up my style and move on into the wave of blogging. So, I am back friends and looking forward to connecting and sharing some more.
love
Miss P xx