Sunday, July 3, 2011

A week down the track

I have spent the previous week "over hauling" myself, I called it project Me Change


I exercised like a woman possessed.
I cooked things that interested me. I tried new styles, new looks, new topics.
But there was more to it than that. The objective of my project was to refresh myself and check in with me, do a personal stock take kind of.
 I was feeling a bit disconnected from myself
I felt uninspired. Old. Out of "it", meaning I felt like I didn't know what was happeningin popular culture. I was feeling like I wasn't living the life I wanted to live.I felt out of touch with things. Fat, old, uninspired.
I needed to check what needed upgrading, changing, keeping and so on.

So upon evaluation of said project what results have I to report?
Well, I watched heaps of movies that I have been meaning to see in 
the last few years, I been reading papers, newspapers, investigating current issues.
I have made a few things, tidied a few things. I have followed up on some outstanding stuff too.
I have put my current "look" under the microscope and guess what?

I have discovered that....
Social issues really are what inspire me, all the movies and books that I saw just tightened my core beliefs and I know that I was born to do the work that I do- it is not a job it is what I believe in.  I just naturally gravitate to the human struggle.
I found that
Exercise gives me LOTS of energy and that even though I don't love it, it works well for me
I have discovered that my metabolism is in dire straits because no matter what I do I can't shift my extra kilos. 
My extra kilos should not make me feel bad, they do not define who I am BUT have been a source of my sadness over the years (oh I have known that for ever) BUT I feel that it is time to stop dwelling on this as it really has never achieved anything - I have kids that need to have confident role models. I just need to be healthy, being happy about being me is healthy.
Oh, and I can always be cheered up with news shoes.

I have also given thought to my future and have come up with some good directions.
I am a pretty lucky duck with a lot going for me.


In evaluation of my week, well I am feeling ok, good, refreshed.
I think that is pretty key, recognising when we need a break. So I had a
good break and I feel renewed, ready for the second half of the year.
So many choices lay ahead, pretty exciting huh?
The old adage apply: " if it meant to be it is up to me"....I can certainly source some assistance, resources outside of me, but ultimately I drive the bus- it is who I am, always been. 
So I will fight "the good fight", I will work true to my beliefs. I will not put myself down. I will be proudof who I am, can be.  I will accept only reasonable barriers, I will love me and all those around me. 

In doing so I get to promote authenticity to my children, my husband, my friends and who ever else crosses my path and that I know is catchy....

Thank you all for supporting me in the past week, I have had wonderful comments and feedback from many bloggers.  You all  mean so much to me and I truly value your kindness, your disclosures and your genorosity as this WAS pretty indulgent and egotistical.  I don't usually put pictures of myself up but I felt that if I was going to bang on about me, you should see me!

PS I set a goal of trying a new hairstyle - ended up going back to my 1993 look that happens to be in (thanks Adele!)...

For those facing school holidays, enjoy relax and be you, for those working- take time for you, but all of you dear friends, be true to you xxx



4 comments:

Amy said...

What a week! Sounds like you did well with your challenge and re-affirmed what you already new about yourself.

Loving the photo's too Lynda.

We are mid way through holidays here. Caden is already asking about when can he go back to school.

Just Martha said...

I like that photo of you smiling. It shows you relaxed and contented. My what a busy week you have had. You must be very efficient because you seem to have reached your goal and don't u still have a week to go? I think you are an amazing role model and I also think you should be very proud of who you are and where you are both physically and spiritually. Go you!

Just Martha said...

I like that photo of you smiling. It shows you relaxed and contented. My what a busy week you have had. You must be very efficient because you seem to have reached your goal and don't u still have a week to go? I think you are an amazing role model and I also think you should be very proud of who you are and where you are both physically and spiritually. Go you!

Catherine said...

I think you've done a great thing for yourself, taking time to be in your own company, to get to know yourself again because when your a mum and everything else as well it can be hard to remember who you are. Good on you, I hope you get time to yourself on a regular basis so keep connected. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Have a wonderful week with your children. xo